88GreenVN
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- Joined
- Jun 12, 2006
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- Age
- 60
- Location
- Surprise, Arizona
- Members Ride
- Dodge Ram Van 1500 5.2 V8
As the title says it's time for me to pull the pin. As unwanted as it is - as I've made plenty of mates along the way on Just Commodores over the years - and pissed off a few too probably. But on the whole put plenty of effort into making a contribution to the Commodore community. But it's time to take a back seat as they say.
As some know on here last year I as diagnosed with Prostate Cancer. The second biopsy this year has it the same size as last year (a Gleeson 6 slow growing) and is in the early stages. But it turned my life upside down and ended my 30 year marriage with depression and panic attacks. heart rate of 230 BPM and just plain sad all the time. None of the side effects are good options - yes very treatable - but they treatment is not fun - nor the outcomes! All the news is bad form the doctors - and the book they give you - if you read it - just makes the world a heavy place to be. No amount of it'll be alright helps!
As much as I fight the sadness - it follows me every day. I thought that if I stuck at the looms and clusters I would be OK. But I have grown tired of the whole show for now. Some days are better than others - but I'm finding it tough.
So what to do next - I have over 100 clusters to get rid of as I have no shed or home to work in. Currently hanging with my dad in Port Pirie keeping each other company , but my dad is leaving Pirie middle of next year to move to Adelaide and so I will not have a place to stay or store clusters - they all need to go by then!
I do have an offer to stay with some one in the States for a while if I can make the trip and I guess I will make an effort to do that. Some old friends may just be what I need.
So for now I will make that my focus - work my way towards a plane ticket - sell what I can (the sale of the V8 VN as just one more heart break) and see if I can make the States trip happen.
I will not close off the JC login just yet - but will be getting close soon.
JC's has been a wonderful place to be and I had a great time here. I will miss it for sure and probably log in from time to time. Just did not want to disappear on all the people that have taken the time to help me out over the years.
Many thanks to th JC's community and god bless.
Regards
Shane.
As some know on here last year I as diagnosed with Prostate Cancer. The second biopsy this year has it the same size as last year (a Gleeson 6 slow growing) and is in the early stages. But it turned my life upside down and ended my 30 year marriage with depression and panic attacks. heart rate of 230 BPM and just plain sad all the time. None of the side effects are good options - yes very treatable - but they treatment is not fun - nor the outcomes! All the news is bad form the doctors - and the book they give you - if you read it - just makes the world a heavy place to be. No amount of it'll be alright helps!
As much as I fight the sadness - it follows me every day. I thought that if I stuck at the looms and clusters I would be OK. But I have grown tired of the whole show for now. Some days are better than others - but I'm finding it tough.
So what to do next - I have over 100 clusters to get rid of as I have no shed or home to work in. Currently hanging with my dad in Port Pirie keeping each other company , but my dad is leaving Pirie middle of next year to move to Adelaide and so I will not have a place to stay or store clusters - they all need to go by then!
I do have an offer to stay with some one in the States for a while if I can make the trip and I guess I will make an effort to do that. Some old friends may just be what I need.
So for now I will make that my focus - work my way towards a plane ticket - sell what I can (the sale of the V8 VN as just one more heart break) and see if I can make the States trip happen.
I will not close off the JC login just yet - but will be getting close soon.
JC's has been a wonderful place to be and I had a great time here. I will miss it for sure and probably log in from time to time. Just did not want to disappear on all the people that have taken the time to help me out over the years.
Many thanks to th JC's community and god bless.
Regards
Shane.